Hey, so I thought I'd share with my few readers something that my husband and I are going back and forth on right now and that's about when we're going to [try to] have a baby.
So here's me- I have officially caught the baby-crazy bug. I don't know if it's because lots of my friends/people I know have either gotten pregnant or had babies recently, or what. But I can seriously not see a little newborn without this new and strange feeling in my stomach like "Oh my gosh... I need one". lol It's crazzzzzyyyy. I am just so ready for that next step. To make an adorable little bundle of joy with the love of my life. AND, I don't know but I've had this feeling that it's going to take a little while. As far as I know neither one of us have any issues with fertility or anything. At least no pre-existing conditions. But for some reason I'm just thinking it'll take a few months. Plus, I'm going to be 25 in a few short months and that's by no means old, but when I'd like to have 3 kids, a couple years apart, all before I turn 35, I'm going to have to start pretty soon. SO basically, I'm ready to in a month or two, start trying (So we're talking April-ish)
Here's my hubby's stance- He wants to have a house of our own at least, if he can't get a better job before having a baby. He says he's not sure if he's "ready" and is concerned about our finances.
Now, I have some of those same concerns, but my feeling is- in 5 years we could be in exactly the same situation. I may NEVER find a full time job. Brew may be stuck in his current job for who knows how long. And I don't want to put my life on hold because of that. I am confident that we can make it work.
*Sigh* I KNOW I need to suck it up and wait until he's ready. But it's just hard. I don't want to rush either but when you know what you want and are ready for it, it's hard to not get excited about it. And he mistakes my excited-ness and wanting to talk about it as "pressuring" him. Which I don't mean to at all.
I'm currently no longer on birth control pills. I was on a progestin-only pill (because of my family history of blood clots) but I am TIRED of it screwing up my periods, so I stopped it a couple days ago. When we originally first talked about it, we were going to start trying in 2 months. Buuutttt, now he seems kind of apprehensive about it, and so I don't know. Blah.
I guess I just need to pray for patience, right?