Saturday, July 16, 2011

Going to be an aunt (again!)

Ok, I'll admit, it's also a little bittersweet.  Let me precursor by saying that our family doesn't know yet so SHHH (aka no facebook comments/posting)

Buuuutttt, I'm going to be an aunt (again!)  :-D  Brew's sister called me today and told me that she just found out yesterday she's pregnant with baby #3!  I'm so happy for her, they've been trying pretty much since October.  We were joking about having a "baby race".

I'll admit though, it's a really complicated emotion I'm feeling.  I feel excited to be having another niece or nephew.  I feel super happy for my sis in law.  I also feel a weird mixture of disappointment and jealousy.  (Like, why couldn't I get pregnant too?, etc.  It doesn't help I'm sure that she found out literally the day I started my next cycle [yesterday]) And then throw a little guilt in there too, because I kind of feel bad for feeling jealous.

Of course my sis in law was super supportive as always, saying not to get discouraged, etc.  It did take her 8 months to get pregnant with her first, #2 was only a couple months, but #3 has taken 9 months.  So she was quick to remind me of all that, which she did make me feel better, but still I had all those feelings going on at once.

Yeah.  I just had to write it out on here to get it out of my system.  I'm going to go clean/do something productive now I guess.

1 comment:

Love Hope Faith said...

Your situation hit home for me. I had a miscarriage in 2009 and was battling feelings of sadness and was very scared to try again. Right after my boyfriend's sister got pregnant at thirty nine and had a text book pregnancy.

I was so happy for them because she has always wanted a second child but so jealous and sad at the same time. I have never been like that before I am always super happy out going. But I kept telling my self there is a time for everything. And what do you know we are pregnant again and everything worked out for the better. We now have a beautiful house to bring our baby home too :) Hang in there! You will have a precious baby before you know it!!