Friday, May 1, 2009
So this has to be one of my very favorite bible verses and I thought I'd share it w/you and my thoughts on it.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I'm a planner. Now, I'm also flexible with them, but I am a planner. And when things don't go the way I think they should, I get a little out of sorts. I know I'm not alone in that, lots of people are that way. When things were chaotic in my life not so long ago, I often felt lost, and like God had abandoned me. That everything in my life was falling apart and going to crap... I thought I had everything all worked out and now that things weren't going the way I thought they should go, I just didn't know WHERE to turn.
I had stumbled on this verse a long time ago, during sunday school. I had made a note of it and promptly forgot it. Until later, when I was going through that difficult time last year, I found it again and looked it up. It hit me all at once when I read it.
We as humans think we know everything. We think we know what is best for us more than anyone. Even as a child we refuse to believe that our parents have more knowledge and experience and can see the "big picture" much more clearly than we can. But God is different. God doesn't just see what is going on in our lives now and what has happened in our lives in the past. He can see beyond that. He can see everything all at once, past, present, and future. He knows the path our lives will take. He KNOWS what is best for us, maybe not what is easy now, but what is best for us in the end. I like to think that I know what is best for me but I don't. My view is SOOOOOO narrow compared to His. So why should I wallow in my sorrows alone? God is working for the GOOD of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose (aka Christians). So with that I began my next task of trusting in Him.
That's not so easy either. It's hard to surrender that element of control to someone else. But see God is here for each one of us, to guide us through the difficult times. If we learn to TRUST that He has a plan for us, He will guide us through the storm.
Now I'm not saying I'm still good at it. I still doubt that my prayers are heeded, and I still like to think I know best. But whenever I'm going through a hard time, I can look back on His Word and know that in ALL things, He is working for the good of ME.
With lots of prayer, I got through the roller coaster of a year I had, and now here I am, finally happy again, and this time on a deeper level than ever before. He knew what He was doing! <3